So Stinkin' Slow

I weighed in this morning and saw 280.4 looking back at me. Only 4 pounds lost since my vacation in August. Seriously. I mean I never, ever, go over 1800 calories a day. According to my BodyBugg, I should be losing at least 2 pounds a week. I am not. I burn about 2500 doing absolutely nothing (later explained). My deficit is on average 750 to 1000 calories per day. My problem is that, for example, I went out to eat 2 times last weekend. I chose very healthy options, but also indulged in chips and salsa. I had wine for about 3 nights last week as well. I still did not go over 1800 calories for each of those days. It seems that I cannot even have a little fun. At all.

This is the frustrating part of all of this. I really would like to lose an average of 10 pounds per month. Heck, I would settle for 7 or 8 at this point. Ran into my mother in-law (who I love dearly) at the grocery store today. I mentioned my total weight loss to her in passing (not because she noticed) and there was this awkward pause. Like, she hears me, but does not see it. She said nothing. I can feel different from my 311 pound frame last January. My husband doesn't even say anything. I in no way will let this derail my efforts. If it takes me 3 years to lose the weight and get to a "healthy" range, then so be it!

Back to the injury. I seriously injured my right foot (am currently in a boot). I can't walk or bend or twist that foot. It hurts. Really bad. I started swimming yesterday and it felt good to get back to the gym. I, unfortunately, am one of those people that will not lose weight very fast, unless I workout like a dog. Stinky, sweaty dog. I am going to go to the gym this weekend, by myself, and enjoy the gym like I used to (pre-kiddos). I love to lift weights. I love to walk on the treadmill, take classes, swim, you name it.

Also, I am addicted to reading other people's blogs. I read them every single day. I need to be more disciplined and blog myself everyday. I get upset if they don't, so I need to hold myself to that standard as well. Starting tomorrow I will try and at least say something every single day.

I am still sending my weigh-in text picture to my friend every Monday. I really enjoy doing this. No matter what, we have to jump on the scale and text the pic to each other. I am down 11 since she and I started doing this. Pretty good I guess. At least I'm not going up.

Enjoy the weekend. Even in nobody is reading this. Maybe one day I will have a following my like fellow bloggers. Take care...

Vacation

Just checking in. I leave for my beach vacation tomorrow. Can't wait. I am nervous about the eating and drinking aspect of the trip, but am not going to freak out about it. Yes, I will drink wine on the front porch while watching the waves crash on the beach. Heaven.



I have packed lots of salad stuff to go with the "dinners." Instead of having flour tortillas with my fajitas, I will have a fajita salad. Open faced burger, etc. As long as I get my food under control, then the 4 bottles of wine might even out.



I really need to start going to the gym when I get back. I have been eating absolutely great. However, I have come to the realization that I am not one of the lucky ones who can just eat good and lose weight. I must workout. Period. No getting around it. I struggle to lose a pound in one week. Totally sucks. It is what it is.



I officially weigh in today at 284. Pretty good, but not great.



Have a great weekend.

3 Bags of Dog Food

Just got back from Target a little while ago. Thus the reason for starting this blog. I loaded a 40 pound bag of dog food into my bright red cart and almost threw out my back. I looked on the label of the bag and was shocked to see it only weighed in at 40 pounds. It was so heavy.

I am embarrassed to say that I am 120 pounds overweight. I weigh in just a tad under 290 pounds, on a good day. I need to weigh 170 pounds in order to be in the "healthy" range. 120 stinkin' pounds. 3 BAGS OF DOG FOOD!. How in the HELL am I carrying that around day after day.

I am 5' 11" tall. I have always been a big girl. Always an inner athlete. Love sports. Have 3 beautiful kids. I gained 100 pounds with my oldest, and just never lost it, like I was supposed to.

I have got to do something about this.